expectations

how many times does it have to happen?
you're up then bam- and you plummet back down ?
The shock is badreally ? it had to happen again?
I feel all alone with people all in this town

All the awkward conversations.
.and the other people are just being polite
there you can tell you're the only one trying
everyone is so busy but still for the friendship you fight

you work hard and do the best you can
but yet you find it wasn't enough
to know that after all that you still failed
it hurts a lot and it's more then rough

Only a few hobbies help for a while but still..
you feel the dull pain and sadness in your chest
you save treats to help sometimes you're ok
but still at night especially it comes out to nest

you want change but yet you worry and feel..
it'll happen: your life's newspaper will have a new header
you'll get a job, meet new friends all the stuff you want..
so you don't move you hope things will change for the better