for those who dare to read this....

Thank you all who have helped for now I would appreciate if you keep this to yourselves .. I will be ok but i would appreciate prayer ..i hope i don't sound too pessimistic having bad few nights...hopefully you can read all of this but it's how i feel...

It seems a long time ago from The time when I was invisible To the guys at the very least A bit much but to me it felt real

Then you come along ..you soon took my notice I didn't think you would ever like me but before long you were my first kiss

I wasn't sure about you I didn't want to move too fast you wanted more I decided why not? As my 1st boyfriend you were cast

I was happy but then...you seemed to want me to change.Little weird comments and questions Maybe it's just me and for you it's not strange..

I really liked you, wanted to get closer but i was shy a lot..this was all new Sometimes I didn't know what to say.. never thought so soon my mood would turn blue.

I thought something might not be quite right but at the time i thought things were fine then the rug was pulled out from under my feet email says it's over, I can't help but feel the fault is mine

I couldn't believe it ... I sat in my dad's lap and cried my emotions are up and down and a lot of the time I want to hide

You said I seem more like a friend..and you don't want a relationship now You started this and how long was i a "friend'? It seemed fine and now this..I wonder how?

How can I argue with something like you see me as a friend? No talking about it not another chance..You just pulled the plug and the end.

I called before I knew..I thought you would care..You didn't pick up the phone..All because you were.. Scared of 'losing a close friend' and lack of words.. I was upset already then you left me alone..

How could you expect me to go to be friends from what we were How did you do it.I read..how the next day you kissed her..

I was angry and jealous all at once Did you do it to rub it in my face? Short timing..Did I mean so little to you? I really wanted to put you in your place I'm too nice of course..a bit of time has passed I still cry at our pictures How did it end all so fast?

Little things bother me..Despite all you say or do please don't expect too much Because..I really liked you

I told you you hurt me..For you it was "sad to hear"..No classes together for us! I just don't want you to be too near...

Some little things I miss..but if on you it began to dawn that you wanted to try again Your chance ..I'm pretty sure is gone

I will be alright I will be fine This is just me after I fell..I want to as know as much as I can.. I wish you well..

I don't like to feel this way you tried a bit to be a nice guy..I don't know how much I can handle.. But I want to do what I can to try...