I don't know if anyone has noticed this i think once someone asked me but when i'm worshipping ussually whenever I know the words to the song or most of them my eyes are shut. Almost always .Why you may ask? Because I don't think worship is a time for friends or to be staring around the room at people. I want to try my best to focus on God it's hard enough when i have my eyes open and i'm seeing my friends. I want to try and think about the words. I always try and give that time to God if nothing else.
Like I said it sometimes doesn't work i ussually end up thinking about something else anyways but i'm trying to eliminate distractions. Also if I go the side or move around when i am looking at the words because i don't know the song , i am most likely just trying to see the words past someone tall i'm not trying to be distracting or trying to get away from you. Also I may move anyways when i try and worship it's not that either, I am again trying to not feel distracted. I may still want to clap but am trying to not worry about what you're going to think if i'm by off the beat some or possibly i may be trying to do some of my own ( or maybe not ) of my motions . to a few songs i have made up some hand motions to the words they may not make sense to you but i feel like doing them sometimes and trying to not care what you possibly think and just to do it anyways. I feel worship is very important . Sometimes i may be ironing , outside or just in my room and i'll listen to worship music and sing with it . I feel with that there is no need to worry as much what other people think because if they could seriously hear me kay would tell me . It takes away from the distrations more and it doesn't matter what i do or how i sound. just less distractions again and i'm turning a chore or something into something better by christian music i love and giving him some time of my life by singing for him even if it is while i'm ironing . a bit of a hard thing for me to grasp is the worship all the time. But i'm just always trying to do my best with jobs. I am always a hard worker. I don't like to leave a job half done. But other then that it's still hard for me to get it . So i'm not perfect at worship but i'm trying. I don't know exactly all about it and don't understand everything , but I'm trying and you know what i was thinking? God knows me he knows i'm trying. So even if i'm not listening to worship music all the time or every single second thinking about God. God knows what i'm capable off and i don't know if i'm loving him with all my heart strength soul and mind but i'm trying and he knows i'm trying and that's all the more reason why we need his grace in the 1st place right? :-D
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