You're all I want you're all I need..

 My head hurts from math today. I've been procrastinating math at times so I'm kinda hoping to be able to finish my mathbook  but i don't know i'm not halfway done and it's already about the end of january...  so i've been trying to do better the day before yesterday i got 2 lessons done and kinda like i have to get this and and this done .. i tried to do that today i could maybe have not been working so late but got distracted .i got so frustrated i started crying not a lot but ugh . i was stuck on this one problem basically and dad came in and said i should stop. Now i'm trying to not have a headache by listening to music I wish there was something else i could do all i can do is try it a few times and then give up.. You're probably wondering what this has to do with God ? Well I will tie it in later ..

 anyways i wanted to mention the other day randomly i was thinking and i think i finally realized Jesus is all I need. It's been pretty cool i do need to remember now that i can't just be by myself.

when I thought of that almost made it sound like I could just be by myself and not have my responsibilities though I wish  I didn't sometimes ,I have them.  I just really need my me time and i was thinking about it and I came up with this there are 2 gifts God gave us .. one is alone time (which you need this can just be time to recharge think or prayer or worship ) I am always  trying to have my me time whether it's a long shower  while singing , secretly not minding some chores too much if i can sing while doing them or.. you get the picture. 

Some people really need to be able to slow down. What's harder for me is 'speed up' . I make efforts but it seems people are so busy it seems to not be worth it or it seems just really awkward a lot ... but i know i need to keep trying. I'll need people to talk to and people will need me to talk to as well.  I need the funny things to think about people to maybe distract me and and though i worry i know that Jesus will always have friends for me and if i'm waiting for one i've always got one.  Hopefully  knowing Jesus is all I need might lessen how much i care what other people think. 

With Jesus being all i need with those things i remembered the everything skit  and I watched it . it's  amazing.  It made me think i have the things pulling at me my desire to try and ' do it all' with schol and everything when really i can't , the threat to worry about friends or future school or even work stuff will i ever drive...  i can really mess up a lot . I also listened to the song as far as the east is from the west. The other day i read where that is in the Bible in Pslams 103. What i hadn't noticed before is the verse. 

11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth,so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him.

 That's pretty far isn't it?He can deal with whatever I can throw at him. He can help me with things I wouldn't expect like with the friend thing , helping me with math and calming all m my fears. I wonder why they didn't put that also in the song.. and that's pretty cool to think about .